Somewhat Damaged

2:08PM - lol livejournal?

so i'm in arizona. i havent used this site in a long time. i just got arrested for drinking. i've been juggling a lot lately. i read almost all of chuck palanhiuk's books, and he is amazing. i've met a lot of cool people down here, and a few weirdos. i lived with matt mai for a while, and now with some cool dudes named ken and tre. i'm thinking about not drinking anymore, and about a lot of things i should do differently. i'm slowly making over my life to make it one i like.
sometimes i think i'm angry at something, but i can't figure out what or why. sometimes i feel like i'm in love with a world that doesn't want me. and sometimes i feel like i don't want the world. but don't worry, i'm not about to give it up anytime soon.

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2:42PM

so. hello. here i am. i'm still going about living. i guess. haven't written in this in forever. alot of people have stopped using it. and i haven't had the internet for awhile. like, months. we have it now, and i should have it set up in my room by tonight. i don't know if i'll turn back to my web addiction. i've spent so many hours on the internet. mainly because i had nothing else to do. but now that i live in a real town, and have friends there, i don't need remote communication as much. although i always really did enjoy the internet. i need more hours in the day.
on a completely different topic, we found a large box of playboy at the park last night. it was rather entertaining. i lit it on fire. i also lit my face on fire earlier in the day. all the hair on my face is a lot shorter now. oh well.
anyway, i have to be off to do a show. bye bye.
love you jessica!
<3
-haventmadeoneofthoseinawhile-

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8:49PM - of all the sauce packets, why me? why now?

soooo, this is an update.
school starts in 5 days. can't wait. hopefully i'll get good classes.
i'm at mom's house, because i had to come here to mow the lawn. stupid? yes.
i had an interview at great harvest yesterday for an interview. i saw yo there. 'twas cool. we hung out with kaity and corey for awhile. anyway, dad's here, and i have no time. so.
love for the masses!
and extra for jessica.

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3:39PM - i seem to have died

so i guess this is an update. i have no internet or phone for now. i'm moving out of mom's house, living with dad, and hopefully getting a house in rochester. hopefully.

things are moving. and when it's flowing so quickly you forget why. like blood. the faster it flows, the more you forget. and you lose your meaning.

i love you jessica, more then anything.
(i'm turning into koori?)

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3:15PM - another pointless day

so i woke up at 7:30 this morning to my phone ringing, and i instinctively hung it up without answering. then i was all like. "oh. wait. that wasn't the alarm. i should've answered it." so i called them back. it was matt, wondering if mom would give him a ride to school to help move. i think i told him something to the effect of "dude don't fucking call me at 7:30 in the morning." and then said i'd reming mom to pick him up. i laid in bed for awhile, not wanting to put clothes on and walk across the hall, but eventually i put some pants on, went and reminded mom to pick him up, and then went back to sleep. some time later i think courtney came in and took the phone, which i had set an alarm on for 9:30 to wake me up, and it didn't, because courtney took it.
so i got up at about 9:45, brushed my teeth, and got in the car to go to a chiropractor appointment, which i was half an hour early for. after and hour and a half at the chiropractor, we got coffee and food, then i went home with justin, and here i am now. i'm going to see if matt can come over for a couple of nights and hang out, which should be cool. i've barely seen him all summer. and i just realized that i make reference to 2 different people named matt in this entry. they're not the same person. just so you know.
*sigh* i have to finish mowing the lawn today, and clean the house -_-
anyway. peace.

<3

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12:32AM - this is me posting

i made a new icon, and i felt the need to make an entry simply so you could al see the awesomeness of it. yeah. that's it. maybe i'll make a real update tomorrow.

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10:15PM - fun thing

Put your playlist on shuffle. Pick the first 20 songs that come up and add "in my pants".
1. Crimes in my pants
2. We're In This Together in my pants
3. Thank You Girl in my pants
4. All My Life in my pants
5. It Was Supposed To Be So Easy in my pants
6. Hurt in my pants
7. Sie Liebt Dich (She Loves You) in my pants
8. Strange Magic in my pants
9. Good Times Roll in my pants
10. Carry That Weight in my pants
11. Wake Up in my pants
12. I'm Burning For You in my pants
13. Dry Your Eyes In my pants
14. Los Angeles, I'm Yours in my pants
15. No Pride in my pants
16. All Things Must Pass in my pants
17. Angel in my pants
18. Berry in my pants
19. Letters To You in my pants
20. Infected in my pants

Current mood: cheerful

Current music: all of the above

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11:55PM - postttt

okay. so maybe i already posted once today. or twice. i really don't know. but i feel the need to make a post specifically to state that sloths are the coolest animal ever in the world, followed closely by the loris. and so, i have accordingly made icons for both. because they rule.

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2:21PM - awesome new icon!

dude, i found the coolest-ever extention for firefox so even dumb people can make icons XD;

so i did. oh man, that sloth is so happy ^_^
...
yeah, that's it.

Current mood: cheerful

Current music: american jesus

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7:06AM - i never update

so, i haven't updated lately. like. at all.
so i'll go over the past few days. we'll start with friday.

friday was great. scool is out, and summer is here. i went to my first zoogerfest, which was fun. i love overseer project. and i like sunshine policy because bill is in it, and he rocks. all the other bands were pretty decent too. no complaints about the music. i have bruises everywhere from the mosh pit and a fat lip. and someone bit me XD that made me laugh.
then on saturday i woke up feeling like shit, my ears ringing, and coughing up green phlegm. then after awhile i tried to stand up and it got much worse. i had a bit of a fever for awhile (i think it was about 103). whatever. i've played alot of halo 2 in the past couple of days.
sunday was about the same. woke up, played halo 2.. then went to sleep.
monday was similar. i wondered why nobody was online until about 4 and then i realized most people still have school, and they were in it all day. like they will be today. my surgery got delayed because i've been sick. so i was really bored.
so now it's tuesday, and it's beginning to actually strike me that it's summer. it's crazy. i don't have to do anything. i want to have a party. i was going to have one on saturday, but i was sick. and it was garage sale day. i was sick on fuxxing garage sale day. i hate myself. courtney and i were going to go get cheap crap together. and i had to go and ruin it by being sick. -_- i suck. and i missed graduation. that's totally lame.

anyway.. i'm going to the school today to help pack things up so we can move out. ;_; i love that building. i know it at least as well as my own home. this sucks. i don't want to move. but what can we do? nothing. whatever. i need socks.

Current mood: bored

Current music: everybody's gotta learn sometime - beck

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7:07AM

look, an update!
so, only 3 days of school left. man, it's been a long year. i am indeed about ready for it to be over.
i can't wait for summer parties and hanging out with all my friends again.
and i can't wait to be able to sleep in in the mornings and not get yelled at to do a million things.
time for school.

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9:43PM

well. i guess i'll update my journal now.
soo. courtney gets out on friday! XD; i've missed her sooo much. we hung out today and went hiking and walked behind a waterfall, and mom didn't even yell at us. it was wonderful. then we walked across a stream, and justing threw baby carrots at us. it was great.
i just cut off my pants, so they're shorts now, and i feel naked. i haven't worn shorts in years. it's crazy.
we're watching 'the young ones' in classic humanities. it's great. british comedy rocks my world. as does mr. himlie ^_^
i think i'm going to go to bed now. peace out.

<3

Current mood: content

Current music: NIN - the line begins to blur

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8:55AM - true enough

Your Rising Sign is Aquarius

You are an interesting mix of introspective and outlandish. Waving your freak flag high, you really do things your own way. While you may seem distant, you care very deeply for humanity. You just have no tolerance for fools, slackers, or dullards. And while you're fairly misanthropic, many are drawn to you. Innovative and clever, people look to you for new ideas and trends.

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8:23PM - HAHAHAHA!!

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10:19PM - quiz

You are an
assassin.
That means you are a proffessional and do your
job without mixing any emotions in it. In your
life you have probably been hurt many times and
have gotten some mental scars. This results in
you being distant from people. Though many
think that you are evil, you are not. What you
really are is a person, trying to forget your
pain and past. You are the person who never
seems to care and that is why being an assassin
fits you good. Atleast, that's what people
think. Even if you don't care that much for
your victims, you still have the ability to
care and to generally feel. It is not lost,
just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to
not get to noticed, and dress in black or other
discrete colours. You don't being in the
spotlight and wish people would just leave you
alone. But once you do get close to someone you
have a hard time letting go and get real down
if you loose him/her.

Main weapon: Sniper
Quote: "The walls we build around
us to keep out the sadness also keep out the
joy" -Jim Rohn
Facial expression: Narrowed eyes

Current mood: tired

Current music: system of a down - roulette

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2:52AM

so. i need new clothes. because i'm sitting here naked waiting for my clothes to get out of the dryer. this is lame. and i'm not even a homeless guy in a laundromat, so it's not as funny.
but i am just about done downloading 'Parti†ion Magïc', 'Ghóst', and 'Åu†o©ad 2ØØ6', so that's pretty sweet.
who needs clothes when i have software?
it's 3:30 and i'm totally not tired. i guess i could watch me some movies. or do some pr0nifying. or learn a better dialect of £€€†.
apart from that, i've got some stuff to look around for and things to do. so i suppose i'll do those things and stop wasting my time here.

Current mood: bored

Current music: flesh into gear - cky

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10:51AM - vital information

i have to pee.

Current mood: bouncy

Current music: Still Waters Run Deep - The 69 Eyes

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2:42PM - yay for updating in class!

wow, it's last hour, but i feel like lunch should just about be starting. i woke up at about 10:30 this morning. i thought to myself: hmm. 10:30. that's odd. it must be saturday. it is saturday, isn't it? no? hmm. i guess i missed my ride to school. so i called around to see if anyone could give me a ride, and nobody could. so then i called my dad, and he came and got me after awhile, but he was all mad about it, because he had to leave work for a little while to do it. whatever. -_-
and now klingsporn is yelling at brandon for using aim on his laptop during class. ^_^ haha. and i'm right next to him updating my LJ.
yeah, i feel really good today. i got about 12 hours of sleep. and wow liek OMG does it make you feel good.

anyway, i have to uh.. research jefferson davis. so imma go do that. or something. i won't be on aim tonight, because i'm staying over at matt's house. it should be a good time. peace. ^_^

Current mood: cheerful

Current music: close yet far - CKY

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10:05PM - good day

so, this morning i went to clay and mrs. mascotti had fired all the pieces that were glazed, and i had like a million things in there. *takes a drink from clay mug* yeah, my sunny-d is tasty.
anyway, then on lunch, meg and i rode around with marty, got almost to her house, and realized that we were already 2 minutes late to class, and we hadn't even started back yet. marty and i said we should skip class and go to a movie, but meg was scared her mom would find out. which was probably true. so we got back to school about 15-20 minutes late (not like it matters).
after school we went to subway, and we had lots of help for tech after school, so we got lots done.
overall, i'd call it a pretty awesome day. clay, friends, tech, what else does one need?
yes, today has been a good day. so i think i should go to bed and thus refrain from fucking it up somehow ^_^

Current mood: cheerful

Current music: heroin girl - everclear

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12:37AM - giving my number to strangers...

i'm a bit cold. and slightly tired. but i don't have anything warm to wear, and i don't feel like sleep. so. listening to music and wishing someone would come online. i want to call people, but it's too late to call, because people go to sleep too early. and i've gotten like four new phone numbers recently, and i want to call them. don't know if i should though.i kindof don't think people are awake. but it's friday night, they should be. mostly i'm just really bored right now and i want someone to talk to.
hey you. call me. yes you. if you're reading this, then call me. because i'm bored. and i have NOTHING to do.

[507]273-5858

Current mood: bored

Current music: sick cycle carousel - lifehouse

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